*Tonight I am Loving You*

I am still standing at the same road
you left me haven't moved at all

You are in every party of mine
sometimes I feel I sound too repetitive
the same emotions, feelings and pain
but can't help when they are absolutely true

I carry a shell with me
bold, carefree, tough I may look
but when you dig deep
you will find a little girl
afraid of anything that is bad in this world

People say what difference is there
the way I have cope up
and had overcome the loss of love in my life

I did made some mistakes
some small, some so big that I carry them with a shame
didn't lost hope always found right people
to guide me
to hold me care for me
But I surely learn from my mistakes

Such is life
Never to easy, never so fair
never so just, never so clever

Girls always eye on the guys they can't get
Guys want girls just to be with them

I did found him in the corner of the street
waiting for me
longing for me
But why did I leave

Buried in the deep cold sea
I am regretting my decision
made in so hurry

Today is the same day when you came in my life
I wrote my name in the palm of your hand
told you to

Save it
Cherish it

Your call that day made me so happy
Still bearing a smile on my face
remembering that moment

that night was Godly
angels were blessing us


The same night is going to come today
The same feelings are going to arise again
I wish you were with me

Because *Tonight I am Loving You* Again

* I JuST cAnT GeT EnouGh *

"Written on the most depressing day of my life"

May be the day has come

The day I was avoiding and wanted to overcome

Lost it all

My dignity, my soul, my sense

You said it

You clearly mentioned it

I am going to regret my actions

so here I am

standing at the end off the long dark tunnel

with nowhere to go

I forgot my way out of this mess

my options seem to be very less

I ain't liking it here

My actions have paid it all for me

Being honest to GOD

I always wanted to be owned in your arms

Here I am

crushed into pieces

Only you were left to hurt me

You have done it

Finally you have succeded

in deminishing my esteem love for you

You are hurt

So am I

It feels am going into deep slumber

slowly and steadily

My soul is leaving my body

I am dreaming

of a world more beautiful than this

where there is no pain , no betrayel

and certainly not fakeness

I am dying

loosing my consious

people say I have lost my mind

But I say i have lost my spirit to live

I am too weak to bear this pain again

constraints of life are fucking my mind

YOu said you are going to kill me if I said anything

I say, dying by your hands

is the pleasure I am waiting for

YOu have owned me

so end it now

my end has come near

set me free from this unfaithful body

Your love is what am taking with

All your sorrows and pain goes with me

In hope of seeing a smile on your face

I AM LEAVING . .. .!!

:'(

Never Say Never

Let it be the way it was

Like the tender rain droplets on grass

It was refreshing

always making me rejoicing

Your presence made a huge difference in my life

but now it feels someone is piercing my heart with a knife

I hate crying my heart out all the time

it makes me feel weak like what I did was a crime

Lets commit a pefect sin

you give my soul back and I will give yours with a kin

I loved you in many ways

but now there is not a single hope getting back to our way

Life was perfect

nothing required to correct

But it was to end

Although you warned my ways to mend

I REFUSED

stubborn, selfish, cruel soul you callled

But I NEVER CHANGED

I still am the same

Living in my own world, where everything is imperfect

call me heartless

call me rutheless

One day you will understand

why I took a stand

You never needed the way I wished you to be with

blessing in disguise you helped me with all your wits

At one point of time I was frustrated

with you dictating me about everything and anything

Am I such a dumb ??

Your life philosphies made my mind numb

Feeling useless about my existence

You suffered because of my presence

Always had been wrong choice for you

For me, you were the most precious treasure I

possessed

I had to let you go

Could not hold upon you for long

You always will be my HERO

a guiding force and a true inspiration

BUT

Do get rid of all my possesions

I have no right on your being

Wish we had never met

Your life would have been much more easier . .! :'(

*The best thing I never had*

Shadows fill my empty heart

because the love is fading

for all the things that we are

but are not saying

I can see beyond your scar

and I will make it mine to so far

I feel like changing the color of the sky

and open up to

the ways you made me feel alive

the ways I LOVED YOU

for all the things that never died

I will make it through our life

I will find you

but what if our love never went away

what if its just lost behinds the words can't say

I will find you

My love will find you

The only thing special about me is YOU

First day I met you

You embraced me with your warmth

A magical spell was cast

I never thought our bond could so long last

you took all my sorrows

and set me free

I never wanted you to leave

but it was our destiny

Cold deep down buried in dungeon

where there is no hope for survival

I am lying waiting for the return of our love

deep inside I know that it just can`t happen

You are bound to leave me alone

I wish one day we could be together again

SORRY for everything I had done with you

I took your soul and refused to give mine

You were right, " THE PATH OF LOVE IS TRANCHEROUS"

Now I believe you when having a hollow soul

and deep inside emotionally broken

I wish I could help myself

as sometime ago I proclaimed to be a LIFE SAVER

Loosing the battle of LOVE is hurting me

I have done it all wrong

screwed once again for one and all

I hurt you again and crushed your hurt

in the palm of my hands with no regret

I deserve to be lonely

have sleepless nights and lie coldly